The stupidity of it all.
Another realisation dawned on me.
And this one made me angry and upset and disappointed.
All I could do is loathe myself for my naivety and cluelessness
That I placed too much trust on the one who never ever deserve it, at least from me.
Perhaps what was shown was true
Genuine display of emotions and actions
But the underlying meaning and purpose it's used for is so utterly unscrupulous
That I cannot bring myself to understand or agree
Much less since it invloves me.
All I could say is "thank you" for putting me through this illusion
And "idiot" to myself for actually forsaking one for such a total farce.
If I'm any smarter I swear I'll have to slit my wrist to die.
I hate myself.
